CONTENT WARNING: KISS
Twenty-first of December. It’s just a day consists of 24 hours, just like any other day. But what makes it so special, I wonder? Is it because, it’s Reality Club? Is it because of the lyrics? Or, is it because we were really never meant to be?
“Bla, bla, bla! Lo ngomongnya muter-muter!”
Gua inget cewek di sebelah gua waktu itu mengomel dengan wajahnya yang buset lucu banget. Matanya yang bulat, bulu mata lentik, dengan rambut pendek nanggungnya juga yang selalu berhasil bikin hati gua terikat sendirinya. Do you know how relieved I am that I was the only guy who could see her charms that she mostly unconscious about?
“Gimana, sih, begini aja lu nggak bisa nangkep isi pikiran gua.“
Dia menoleh dan mencibir, “Gini, yach, Jonah Otista, dari tadi di motor yang keluar dari mulut lo itu udah nggak jelas semua!”
Gua tertawa. “Sekarang tanggal berapa?”
“Hah? Meneketehe, tiba-tiba amat pula nanya tanggal?”
Dengan tenang gua mengeluarkan benda gepeng dari saku celana. “Ooh, sekarang tanggal 21 Desember.”
“Penting banget, ya?”
“Who knows. Maybe one day we’ll remember this day when we are already having two kids or more?”
“Kejauhan, woy! Lo yakin kita masih bareng?” Tawanya memutar bola matanya. Gue pada saat itu juga tertawa, tapi entah kenapa gue juga tertampar, agak tersinggung, udah mau bete. Gua juga awalnya cuman iseng, sih, mengecek tanggal. Who knows that checking the date would be so important to me?
Namun dalam sepersekian detik, gua inget dia meraih tangan kanan gua untuk digenggam, sedangkan tangan gua yang satu lagi masih memegang handphone yang saat itu keberadaannya sudah tidak ada gunanya lagi. Hati gue udah kayak terblender dengan organ-organ yang lain. I used to love it when she was the one making moves.
Despite the question she asked, the man, Jonah Otista, decided to be happy that night and it might sound cliche but who cared when I had that girl’s hand intertwined to mine. Gua dan cewek di sebelah gue, hari itu— lagi-lagi — memutuskan untuk having a short night escape.
That night, we were sitting on the pavements, watching cars and other bikes driving through. Motor gua terparkir rapih di pinggir jalan. Gue juga lupa kenapa malam itu kita memutuskan untuk keluar. Gabut banget emang. But weirdly became our habit that time. Just casually enjoying each other’s company.
Cuman kita sempat bosen, and looked for something interesting on Youtube. Coincidently or not, Reality club just uploaded the music video of 2112 along with the song released on every music platforms. We were excited. Banget. Malah gua rasa nggak pernah ada orang yang se antusias kita berdua saat itu, apalagi Reality Club was our comfort band.
We shared earphones, dan dengerin lagunya dengan saksama. Nggak butuh lama buat gua jatuh cinta sama ini lagu apalagi sama cewek yang ikut dengerin bareng gua. The monologue part, damn. We were having goosebumps all over our bodies. Kita sampai teriak-teriak heboh sendiri.
“It gets harder, yes you’ll see. But were we ever meant to be?” lantun Hanna menyanyikan part lagu yang diulang-ulang itu. Gua cuman bisa memperhatikan dia dengan harapan lirik itu nggak bakal menjadi pertanyaan gua suatu hari nanti.
Dia membalas tatapan gua berkaca-kaca. “Jon, enak banget anjrit?!” katanya sambil mengulang-ulang 2112.
Gua cuman bisa ngangguk dan nyengir doang, lagi-lagi. Gua seneng dia suka lagunya. And it eventually became our song.
But maybe that was our first wrong move. It manifested. The lyrics.
Waktu itu juga gua udah takut sendiri with the way we liked the song, and my head constantly went on a pathetic mode.
“Kok, lu mau jadi better half gua, sih, Han?” I asked her all of sudden as I reached for my Marlboro pack in my hoodie’s pocket, dan jujur gua nggak sekali dua kali nanya pertanyaan bodoh itu ke dia selama pacaran. I am fully aware, I asked it out of my insecurities. I am a guy full of flaws. And if I am scared, It’s because of the fear of losing her.
Namun alih-alih mendapat jawaban, yang ada langsung direbut bungkus rokok gua sama dia.
“Jon, do you even care about your health at this point?” Yah, kena lagi gua.
Hanna, cewek yang bawelnya nggak kalah sama nyokap gue, I really had the urge to kiss her mouth that wouldn’t stop nagging that night.
Okay, mungkin otak gua memang udah terkontaminasi hal-hal selayaknya remaja laki puber pada saat itu. But was there any guy wouldn’t kiss their girlfriend? Like, even though I had not even kissed her yet, it was normal for a lover boy to have this urge, right?
Cuman gua nggak pernah berani buat nyosor duluan, bahkan nyentuh dia aja gua mikir seribu kali. So I would only ended up keeping those stupid ideas to myself. Mennnn, otomatis ganteng gua nambah, nggak, sih, pas ngomong begini?
“Jon, tapi jujur. I realized how many times you’ve asked that to me.” Okay we’re going back to that night. Gua menoleh ke arah dia, memberikan wajah paling serius, mengantisipasi lanjutan dari kalimat yang ingin dia utarain.
Our eyes met. She suddenly smiled, tilted her head a bit, and moved her heard forward, when I felt that her lips met mine. Then she quickly moved her head back and said,“My answer won’t change a bit. Lo itu tetep the only man who destined to come into my life, and appeared to be only bringing good things in my life. I like you for that.” Shit.
So, I was sitting there silenced aftermath. I knew that it was just a small peck on the lips. But this girl had just seriously stolen my first kiss. Dalam pengalaman gua dalam hubungan selama ini, kayaknya gua cuman pernah kecolongan sama dia doang.
Gua cuman bisa cengengesan jelek. But she stayed cool as if it was nothing, while I can still smell the scent of her perfume, peachy scent of her conditioner which were dizzying to death. And do I have to mention the taste of her lips?
Little did I hope that she felt as dizzy as I am, then I looked her and caught her ears were red, red. I am amazed of this girl.
“Han.”
Hanna menoleh, beberapa kali mendelik. “Hm?”
“We should see Reality Club bringing 2112 live, next year. Together. Promise me?”
She smiled and there was like a sudden beam of sunlight illuminating the night. “Promise,” she answered.
But kudos to me. That promised didn’t get to be fulfilled after all.
END
